Dreams Memories ( Memory SEVEN )

Memory SEVEN

My mind goes blank. I really don’t understand it. Where this feelings come from if I’m not him. Where this dreams come from if I’m not him. It feels useless. All the effort I make, all of the things. Suddenly I hear a voice.

“Hey, are you okay?” Shylvarion asked.

“Huh? Oh… I’m fine…” I answered.

Well it’s a lie. I’m not okay at all. I really confuse of all this things.

“You know, You are the only person that can make me smile again after I lost him. You really like him, Maybe God doesn’t hate me at all.” Shylvarion said with smile.

“Wait a minute. Lost? What do you mean?” I asked.

“Yea…He died in accident. And because he died, I can live till now, but because of him too I suffer this pain and sadness in last 8 years.” She explained.

“You can live because he died?” I asked.

“Ah, don’t mind it. It’s already happened, nothing can change that.” She replied.

“Hey, Shylvarion…” I said.

“Zeall.” She interrupted.

“Huh?” I asked.

“Call me Zeall. It makes me feels he come back even though you are not him. Can you?” 

“Of course, Zeall” I answered.

“So, What is it?” She asked.

“Oh… I’m sorry but,  Can I know when and where did he die?” I asked.

“Oh… The doctor said 5^th June 2004. In front of the hospital in Astalen.” She answered.

“5^th June… Wait a minute. I’m sorry, I’ve to leave now. Can we meet again someday?” I asked quickly.

“Heh? Okay. I’ll be at station at 5 o’clock just like always.” She answered.

After that I run quickly to home. 5^th June 2004, My sis told me everything about it. 5^th June was when I and my Mom had accident. At the same place in Astalen. I wonder If this 2 accidents is same. I arrive at home. My sis isn’t home yet. I quickly turn on my sis computer and search for this accident. 8 years ago in Astalen. I find 1 article about it. And I read it.

“The accident happened in front of the Astalen’s General Hospital. A car crashed the pole and a child got hit by the car. The Police said that the car slipped due rain then hit the child before it hit the pole. There were 3 victims including the child. 2 died in place, 1 in critical state. The death victims were a woman and a boy. Gabe Arcsen (32) and Yuuki Arashi (9). The other one, who is in critical state was the woman’s child Zen Arcsen(9). The paramedic quickly brought the boy to the ICU.”

No way… No fuckin way… That means My mom made Yuuki died. My mom made Zeall suffers. Wait, No. Sis have told me that before that night I had a fever, my Mom panic and brought me to the hospital and that cause the accident. Dammit! That mean I killed them. I’m the one who made Zeall suffers. How can I tell this to Zeall. Oh God. I turn off the computer and take a bath before my sis comes home. After that, I’m having dinner and hurry go up stair to my room.

I’m thinking and thinking. After all I’ve done for Zeall. I learn the truth that I’m the one who makes her depress instead of make her happy. I’m sorry Zeall, I’m sorry Yuuki. With so many things in my mind I go asleep.

I have a dream, The same dream as ever. I see a little girl in critical condition in the hospital. Wait, Is that Zeall? This must be the scene after she had accident. I see the doctor talking to the nurse.

“We must do something with her. Otherwise she will be died.” The Doctor said.

“But Doctor, we have no donor. Both of her parents died and she has no family to contact.” The nurse said.

Wait. Donor? Donor for what? Blood? That must be dozen blood stocks in this hospital. You must be kidding me.

“This girl need heart transplant, The condition is critical.” The doctor said.

Heart Transplant!? I never knew Zeall had this kind critical condition in her past.

“Doctor! The patient condition getting worse” The Nurse said.

“No… We’re losing her. Get the pacemaker ready.” The doctor said.

No… No… That can’t be right? Zeall died? So, Who is Zeall I met before? This must be lie. Because I saw Zeall before. No way she died. There’s no fuckin way!